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Megan  Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that...

Happy birthday to ret. Capt. Sandford!! I know I brag about my dad a lot, so I’ll keep it short(er) and wrap it up with part of a poem that reminds me of him:
If you can keep your head when all about you are losing theirs and blaming you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating,
And don’t look too good, nor talk too wise...
“If” by Rudyard Kipling
Love you, dad!
Also...scroll to the end for the best attempt at flossing you’ll ever see. I promise. 😂🙈😜

Yesterday was Friday. It felt like it had been a long week. As I was leaving my office at 4pm, I was heading down toward the main OHSU hospital. As I got closer, I saw people running in the same direction. At first a large number, then smaller groups. All of them in white coats or scrubs. They weren’t just in a hurry, they were moving with purpose. It was the first time I’d seen such a thing on campus. As I passed through the hospital lobby I glanced back to see a woman running with a 12-lead. Then it hit me.
They’re responding to a code blue. I remember being awestruck as I just stood there and stared after them.
A code blue isn’t uncommon in a hospital. But it isn’t everyday you see one taking place outside of a specific unit. This one took place in a clinical area inside Physician’s Pavilion. A code blue is called when someone’s heart stops, or as Melissa explained, there is a high risk of death as the outcome. Once a code blue is paged, anyone in close proximity, trained in how to respond, immediately goes to that location with every intent to save someone’s life. As I resumed my walk through the hospital, I heard the overhead page: “Code blue all clear”. Instantly, I was overwhelmed with emotion. I hadn’t even made it to my car before I started to cry.
There was something incredibly profound in seeing so many people come to one’s rescue. As I was asking my dear friend @leaster_beaster questions about a code blue (also while explaining I was in tears!) she said something that is so true:
“Because of the intensity of the response, it feels like everyone is stripped down to something fundamentally human.”
It doesn’t matter who the person is that coded, all the responders are fighting to save that person’s life.
At the end of the day (well, truly, right from the start) we’re all human. In theory, we’d all have a team of code blue responders if something happened to us. Regardless of who we are.
Witnessing that put some things in perspective for me.

Its mama Sandford’s birthday today, people!!! Happy birthday mommy!
I wouldn’t be who I am today with my mama. She is fierce, kind, friendly, generous, funny and beautiful! Love you forever, mama!!!
Also, my family struggles to keep our eyes open. 🤷🏻‍♀️

I didn’t stage this picture. (Well, as much as you can NOT stage a picture, when you intend to snap it)
This last week I turned another year older. It was the first year of my life that I remember wishing with all my light that we could just skip my birthday. Just fast forward past Sept. 11th (yes, I share a birthday with a national tragedy) and keep moving ahead.
When I look back on my 31st year it was by far the most challenging one I can recall. But as my people looked back with me they saw something I didn’t see, but I needed to hear. The last year may have been full of the most unexpected challenges and pain, but forging ahead in the midst of that revealed greater character, new confidence, fierce boldness and a deeper awareness of who I was truly created to be.
I’m going to tell you a secret that I’d been afraid to admit (and truly, in debilitating denial about) for the past 5 years. If you’re deep in my pocket of people, you’ll know I was pretty convinced I didn’t want to get married. I had NO desire for what I thought marriage could (or couldn’t) offer.
True confessions: I do want to get married. I’m terrified of ending up alone. And the greater truth is that I don’t have to be terrified of that. Fear isn’t the decider of my fate and future. It’s a liar. Ain’t nobody got time for that!! The other truth is, no matter where we are, single, married, parents or not, we ALL hear that voice that says “you’re alone”. When you feel it, go grab somebody’s hand, link arms, ask for help! Fight together!
Thank you to the small pockets of people that sat around the dinner table over takeout or home cooked meals and celebrated my life. Thanks for not forcing me to go out and make a big show. But to just let me ease in to 32.

I went and saw Sam Smith in concert on Friday. I have to say it was a beautiful show but my mind was so distracted before Mr. Smith even set foot in the stage.
A young woman sitting right behind us got in an argument with some individuals around her. I didn’t hear every detail, but I quickly understood that all parties involved felt they were right and the conversation escalated to name-calling and threats. While I’m glad no physical retaliation was taken, it became clear the damage was already done. It was almost as though I could visibly see the young woman accept the negative response she received, and likely has received all her life, and her defenses through up a wall. As she was turning around to defend herself to her neighbors yet again, I felt the need to engage her in conversation. I couldn’t undo how people chose to behave, but I could get to know her. I truly felt like she needed to know she no longer needed to waste time convincing people of her position, and not to accept the negative “energy” (her words) she was feeling from the others. So I told her!
Did you know that YOU get to choose how to respond to people? And YOU are the one that has the ability to influence an environment?
There were plenty of people around us when this happened. My initial intention was to turn to her and say “sis! You are being too extra! Calm down!” But here’s the thing, I didn’t know her personally, but I knew she’d heard that her whole life. So I responded differently. I got to know her.
And here’s the truth, you’re not too extra. You’re not too anything. You are just right! You are enough!
I know that I need people who remind me who I really am...and I can’t be the only one.
Let’s be people who speak truth to each other. Even to complete strangers.

One Margaret (the dog), two Megan’s and many excursions around Ellensburg!
Megan and I met in high school and even though we went to different schools we became fast friends!
Fun fact, we have the same first AND middle names!! 💁🏻‍♀️😂
So thankful that after nearly 15 years and SO many changes, we can still laugh and cry together! Love this girl and her sweet heart and friendship!

While backing up my computer, I found an old timelapse video from when I visited @sarahksandford in Plymouth England...seems like forever ago!
Man, I miss that place!

If you’re ready to experience the full weirdness of our friendship...check it out.

Life has looked a little chaotic lately. Between work and condensed-quarter classes I’ve had little margin for social activities.
This sweet friend blessed my soul by coming to visit me at work during the OHSU Farmer’s Market and sharing truly Portlandian moments with me! 😂
Thankful for the reminder that seasons will change but your tribe will always know who you are and point you back to your truest self.

Unplanned summer nights in Seattle! Thanks mom for getting me a ticket! I guess car trouble isn’t the worst! 😂😂

This happened yesterday and I’m not even mad. 😂
Had the most magical time spotting sea turtles, spinner dolphins and fishies down the Na Pali coast!

My dad’s literally the greatest man I know.
Thanks for sharing most of your wisdom through sports analogies; for teaching us how to make fluffanutta sandwich’s and for giving me the crazy curly hair (that you once had). I’m proud of who you are and who you inspire others to be.

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