“Love is my last chance in life—I have to love, first of all, my own consciousness. I have to love my own character. I have to love my own characteristics. I have to love my own dignity. I have to love my own dimension. There are so many things I am supposed to love for myself, before I say even one word of, “I want to love you.” - Yogi Bhajan
My 1st Unconditional Love
When I first embarked on my journey of spiritual self-discovery, the 1st challenge I took on was to know the true meaning of unconditional love. Funnily enough, my 1st lesson began with a broken heart caused by my most beloved Portuguese love who had first introduced me to meditation.
In the beginning, there was heartache & confusion so I meditated to quiet the monkey chatter in my mind. After some time,I cultivated a daily practice of a series of mindfulness & wellness techniques that helped to focus all my energy on healing & opening my Heart Chakra. Soon,I learned to release the struggle that came with the illusory pain of loss & then, one day, it was gone. The illusion had simply vanished & I was wide awake.
Instead of hurt, I felt giddy & delighted in the brilliant glow of intuitive understanding that arose with the essence of God / love inside me. The more I filled my primordial Cup with the elixir of true love for my Highest Self, the more compassion I felt for everything around me, & the more unconditional love I had to offer the World!
Later on, I found the courage & strength in my heart to forgive my beloved & let him go with nothing but gratitude for all that I had learned from him,for all that we had shared. In fact, I still love him to this day, unconditionally, & wish him all the best. He & I share the exact same symbol engraved on both our skins of the Anahata, the Heart Chakra, which has served me well as a constant reminder to tune in to my experience of unconditional love in whatsoever form my current lesson chooses to take on.
For little did I know there would be no end to such an endeavour of embodying true unconditional love, for my Self & All My Relations. With luck, it will transform me till my last breath.