As part of Mental Health Awareness Month I’d like to share my own story along with my own personal growth.
Throughout my college education I’ve struggled tremendously with maintaining my mental health. Breakups, lost friends, family issues,, sometimes it’s just too much.. I let my emotions eat me alive in the past. I was a drug user, testing some boundaries to see what would make me feel less, I drank to fall asleep, and overall I stopped eating. Eating has been something I’ve struggled with for as long as I can remember. I never saw myself as obese or chubby in any way, it was more of an outlet that helped me control SOMETHING in my life. Whenever I was going through stressful times, I just stopped eating because I felt like I didn’t deserve to eat and I couldn’t stomach the food.
This past Fall semester I went from 125 to 98 pounds. I was a walking skeleton. My family, friends, and coworkers all noticed even though I denied any allegations of weight loss. It got to the point where my body hurt from just walking, I didn’t have the energy to do anything.. After spending some time with myself and realizing who I am and my own personal morals and values, I decided enough was enough. I practice mindfulness, a meditation and way of thinking that helps me focus on accepting things for what they are and NOT letting my emotions devour me the way they use to. So far I’ve regained 10 pounds and I’m happy with my slow growth.
The journey is long, but it is a journey I’m ready for.
Psalms 46:5 God is within her, she will not fall ❤️