A statement is has to be (and the one and only time I'd talk about in public).
I am NOT your "sweetie"! I am NOT interessted in a relationship. I DON'T wanna have a affair. You WOULDN'T fu.. me!
No I am not a lesbian; the one and only reason is: I just don't want a man in my live!
Every single man meaned a whole disaster for me, my heart and at least my financial existence. I loved a man for about 10 years with the deepest feelings a human beeing can have. The break gave me the deepest pain I've ever felt. The only things I'd were a car, a foldaway bed behind my Mom's couch and few clothes for about 3 years! Without my good friend Olaf I wouldn't had survived that. And that's NO joke! I worked to death in that years, 18 hours per day, 4 jobs, no hollydays no nothing! Unfortunately Olaf fall in love with me. But I didn't loved him that way. Because I worked also in his movie agency it went bad in two ways. After 4 years of working 24/7 and the break with Olaf I had the stroke it knocked me down. My second boyfriend went in my live short before. But unfortunately I wasn't the women he wished to had and I wasn't willing to turn to a mouse instead of a fighter. We'd family plans and tryed to get pregnant. I also prepared the "new start" after the stroke in that way and chose to stay unemployed (should be to get a Mom in a few month's). But unfortunately he thought it would mean he could have Sex every day. Just a few weeks later he decided to don't want to have Kids anymore. It ended in a very big dispute and I quit. My good friend Paddy was a partner in crime and one of the most seldom: a man he wasn't interessted in "to fuck me"! We had the worlds deepest philosophy talkings, we loved to dance and he fell in love with a nice women. She saw me once. And that was the last day I saw Paddy. Hanspeter arrived a year before. An older man he got a good friend and needed help in his agency badly. I got the job and a good friend. Right at this moment I am sitting here since three months without money. Problems in the agency. The rest just asked directly if I am able to get fucked. It seems it's the only value I should have for men. I wouldn't trust a man again so far!