DISCLAIMER, GRAPHIC POST:
48 hours ago, I lost control of my car at a very high speed on a gravel road, hitting a tree that flipped me upside down, dragging the side of my face and shoulder against the gravel. It peeled my skin right off, leaving me as a bloody mess, screaming for help. I stood there looking at my upside down totaled car in disbelief. I knew I had made a huge mistake of running from my problems of anxiety, depression, dealing with a father with cancer, rather than admitting them and seeking help. I had lost my phone in the process and I was unable to call 911. So I crawled down the road to the nearest farm house and started pounding on the door until they answered and asked them to call an ambulance. I woke up in the ER and called my Dad as he is one of the only numbers I remembered off the top of my head. He went to track down my car so he could find my belongings. When he got to the junk yard, the guy that found my car said he couldn’t believe I walked away from a wreck like that and that my soundboks severed as a roll bar and saved my life.
What I did was stupid and I could have easily lost my life. I am hoping to make changes in my life but I also hope to shed light on the fact you never know the pain someone carries until you lend an ear and listen as a friend. From the outside looking in, my life looks amazing and it is pretty freaking sick but I’m also a human being with real feelings and emotions and how we operate nowadays with social media people hide their issues and problems because we so easily judge and compare each other and are led to believe we can’t have anything wrong with ourselves. So be willing to have deep conversations with those close to you and be understanding of others and their feelings. Here’s to the beginning of the next chapter. Thank you to my family, friends, and nurses/doctors that took care of me and keeping me alive the last few days. Keep runnin’ it !