Pardon my rant. It's been a frustrating week. Only trained once since last week's deadlift day so the self-doubt in the past 24 hours has been overwhelming.
I still feel young, physically & mentally, but now and again I think in reality I'm old now.
I've been in gyms for over 20 years. When I was 18 I observed how infectious it was on the gym culture to see the gym owner get amongst it, regularly train twice a day just so he could get the serious work done in the morning, then have a more social hit-out with us younger guys in the afternoon.
When I started working with @tonydohertyoz in 2003, he was about 39 I think, and he trained every morning, with the exception of the week or two leading up to the Aus Grand Prix Pro Show.
Now I'm 37, whether I like it or not, I'm the old dude to the younger guys, and I feel it is my duty to pass down the lessons taught to me a generation ago.
These days, you hardly see any gym owners training let alone even on the gym floor.
There is truth in the saying fake it until you make it, but for these poor folk, they will never make it. You can't cheat the iron. You can't fake pulling over 200, you have to earn it.
At this age I'm so grateful that I still love training, and if the hunger is still there, I still love competing.
We are a dying breed us bodybuilders who used to do it well before social media.
Anyway, here's a video of today's 230x6. I don't command an audience but then again I'm pretty vocal and have an ego so maybe I do? Either way, the morning crew @dohertysgymcity eat up the atmosphere and it fuels them to push harder in what they're doing.
Don't believe me? Just ask them.