Has anyone been offended but like, in the best way possible? Lol. Does that even make sense? Let me explain. I spent some time on here a while back saying how I was in no way happier now than I was before. While that’s true, that doesn’t inherently mean I’m not happy with who I am as a person. Emotions are a fickle thing, and I don’t think people can be judged based on the level of happiness you perceive. I’ve grown so much over the last 6-7 months. I’m generally the same person, but I’ve improved.
So anyway, I was having a conversation with someone and I was told that I don’t appear to be happy with myself. Instead of agreeing like I usually would’ve, (because depression is a bitch and I usually absorb the negative shit people say about me like a fucking sponge) I was offended. I mean, excuse me? How dare you? You don’t know me. You don’t know what I’ve worked for. You don’t know what I’ve gone through. I mean, yeah I do have moments where I’m depressed as fuck and don’t want to get out of my bed, but that doesn’t mean I’m not happy with who I’ve become. I. Have. Depression. These moments come and go! So I’m offended, right, and me being me, I had to explain why he was wrong about me. Can I understand how he reached that conclusion? Sure, and I told him that, and that he’s entitled to his own opinion of course.
But after that, I realized, I don’t give a shit what other people think. I don’t give a shit if someone doesn’t think I’m happy with myself. I don’t care. I’ve got NOTHING to prove to anyone and I shouldn’t have to convince anyone of anything. I’m not a happy person, but that doesn’t mean I can’t be a positive or opportunistic person. That doesn’t mean I’m not happy with all of the progress I’ve made. That doesn’t mean I’m not happy with myself. *I’m positive he didn’t mean to offend me (besides, we can’t control how people interpret and react to what we say) and he’s a nice guy but truthfully I’m glad he did because he reminded me of something important.* ‘You either like me or you don’t. It took me 20-something years to learn how to love myself, and I don’t have that kinda time to convince anyone else.’ 🤷🏻♀️