🍂So October is a magical month for a few reasons, for one- enter fall.
The colors do something to me, the smell in the air and seeing vibrant orange pumpkins all over and observing people as they are feeling more comfortable in their “woo woo” and connection to the Spirit realm.
My personal favorite time of year. Scorpio season! Enter Kali- enter fierce scorpion who shines a vibrant neon pink hue in the darkness of the night. It’s the mystery, that invites us to dive deeper and turn to love.
October is also Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Month.
My heart is with YOU, all the hearts who have felt the pain and grief of loss. Hear me. 💓 “I see you,
I honor you,
I acknowledge you,
I love you.” You are the Love Warriors walking among us, deeply humbled by the delicacy of life and the strength found in the pain. You are held this month, and always.
It is with great humility, and vulnerability that I share this with you...
This year, 10 years have passed since I experienced the loss of my first pregnancy (identical twin boys who passed at 27 weeks due to twin transfusion). I was 17. It was the darkest time in my life. I look back now and hug that younger me, I hold her in love and honor.
In this pain though, I found more love waiting. I let myself hurt and let myself feel and found a deep reserve of love. Of strength and of gratitude. I decided to heal myself. I decided to empower myself through the pain, through the vulnerability. I went right in.
Thank you for hearing me, for seeing me as I am now. Whole, grateful and open. And like everyone, still growing and learning. My heart looks back and smiles, we’ve come a long way. 🕊
Here I am now, blessed with 3 beautiful boys, blessed to love a man who has a heart of gold and a family that brings me a joy that I can’t put into words. Living and loving with all my heart.
So thank you, reading this. Thinking of you and how you inspire me. For showing up for yourself (the World) and always choosing love and acting with courage. Even through the hardest of times. You are a blessing!
Gorgeous Womb art by Catie @spiritysol