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Tiff  Reader, searcher, maker, thinker. Madly in love with 6 dear boys and 1 good man.

My studio door.👀❤️
I love how it looks like it's whistling a happy tune. Or blowing me a kiss!😘

Happy Birthday, my little Graham-bo!!
You are our stardust and moonbeams and sunshine and we all love you to bits!!❤️

A year ago tonight, I sat on the edge of my pool, silent tears coursing down my face. I was listening to José González' "Staying Alive" and sobbing at every chorus: "Dawn is coming, Open your eyes". I was dipping a brush in the pool and hand lettering the alphabet on the sidewalk because I believed (and still do) that creation is therapeutic. Eventually I started lettering the only things that felt true anymore--the names of my children and my God, and my love for my husband.
I felt so broken. I was just barely 8 months pregnant. The placenta previa and constant bleeding, the fear of losing my baby, the life altering adjustments made for gestational diabetes, the six months of sleeping on the couch because of relentless heartburn, the anxiety when I went to sleep at night, the fighting I had to do every day for the tiniest shreds of hope--it was all so heavy. And I was scared. So scared. The worst part was not knowing when it would end, or if there would be a baby for me when it did.
I wish I could go back in time and rock that girl in my arms. I wish I could hold her tight and let her cry. I would tell her, "Just one more sleep. One more night till this is behind you. Just a few more hours till you hold your sweet, sweet boy. It's going to be a little rocky, but you will be okay. You will feel whole again. You will dance and run and jump again. You will lift your boys into the sky again. You will shop at Target and sleep in a real bed and eat all the carbs again. You will be happy and you will be ABLE again."
I sat outside in the dark tonight thinking about last year. I played the same song--it had been ages. And I found myself crying as the long forgotten lyrics washed over me with new meaning behind them:
"And I will wait for you tonight
You're here forever and you're by my side
I've been waiting all my life
To feel your heart as it's keeping time
We'll do whatever just to stay alive
Dawn is coming
Open your eyes." ❤️

When your purple cabbage just looks like one more (ginormous) peony bud.....💖

For those wondering how we managed our flight to Boston with six kids.....😁
The in flight movies did 99% of the heavy lifting, but I'm still glad we loaded their backpacks with this stuff. They ended up using it a lot at the hotels, in the rental car on our day trips, and on the subway.
Per another mom's suggestion, I wrapped all items so they couldn't see everything at once, and so there was one more thing to do on the plane--unwrap. #anticipation
(The silver wrapped items were novels/short story compilations.)
Also, the animal neck pillows for the littles were a genius two-for-one. Pillows on the plane and car rides; comfort objects at bedtime in new surroundings (since we didn't have space to pack woobies😄).
ALSO, triangular crayons for the win! No rolling away!

He made sure his baby brother was out of the stroller and right up front for all the good stuff.
❤️❤️❤️#provofreedomfestival #4thofjuly

Date night.❤️❤️❤️

Sprinkle donuts and sprinkle pools.....😍
Have you seen the recently opened @museumoficecream?? I die!! That place is straight up summer--giant melty popsicles, mint plants sprouting from chocolate dirt, and A LIFE-SIZE SPRINKLE POOL.😳🙏🏻🙌🏻
Guys: you can actually jump into a sprinkle pool. How is this not awesome?!?! I want to visit sooooo bad, but in the mean time, I created a mini version to enjoy....👌🏻😊🍦🍦🍦🍦🍦🍦
#museumoficecream #4vr

Spotted at the U.S.S. Constitution; wishing I had a copy now that summer vacation has begun.
(Btw, does anyone else have endless amounts of paperwork to go through from your kids' classes?? #somanynotebooks #help)

I think this would have been really cute with all *six* of my ducklings, know, FREE WILL.😂
#iamthatmom #makewayforducklings #makewayforhoehnes


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