Now it is time to say goodbye and leave the safe environment and the safe place.
I am so Thankful for all the people i met and who supported me and opened my eyes again and again.
Everybody of you is beautiful and unique.
Thanks to all the experiences, to all the fun moments, to all the deep conversations, to all constructive words. Thank you for always having someone who was by my side and picked me up again. Whenever I thought i can't do this anymore, you were there and convinced me by the contrary.
But in the end is was my own decision to fight against my illness!
Often I doubted, wanted to throw everything down and give up. Never open my eyes more and just fall asleep.
But i didn't!
I kept me up again I was dubbed and fought.
An inner struggle with myself began!
There were hard times, crying, anger, anxiety, disappointment, pride, malaise, feeling fat, fatigue,worthlessness, thoughts around the disease, self-hatred and obsession but also there was good days were i felt
stronger than ever, courageous, happy, confident, I could laugh again, have fun, and could think of other things than my illness.
After 8 months i am able to go home 🏡 again.
Yes i am nervos but i know it is time to leave my second home and stay in my life!! Because guys the clinic isn't a real home, it is a station, people go if they need help and there they help us to stay alive! But your real life is outside the clinic.
Now I'm free ! I will continue to fight and give my life a chance 🌸
I will tell you, never give up!
You can do everything if you only want