This was me the day after my Dad died 7 years ago today. I got a memorial tattoo that day. I needed an outlet for the pain and it was my first tattoo. I screamed loud enough the entire time for people in the tattoo shop to be concerned and check on me. He was in so much pain and suffering and I wanted to feel that pain so I could fully understand why he had to leave us. It worked for that couple of hours. After the tattoo the emotional pain got really heavy. My Dad was the only person in my life that I talked to pretty much everyday of my life. We rarely fought and could see each other's true essence. Many relationships bring out the shadow in us, the darkness we don't want to see but with him it was so much love and care for each other. I went to bereavement Therapy, individual and group. I brought my whole self to those sessions and went through so many phases of grief. I came to understand that there is no timeline on grieving a parent. Once I accepted that is when I began to receive the blessings of his passing.
It was like his spirit was on a mission to communicate to me in any way that he could-through channelers and mediums, through helium balloons, through images of sunflowers, through dolphins, through my dreams, through music, through synchronicity. It became undeniably clear to me that there's an afterlife and that the only thing that left me was his human body presence. The presence of his spirit was very much alive and I began to develop a new type of relationship with him. A relationship that has felt more supportive and empowering than the relationship I had with him when he was a human. How is that?
I understand now that he has a hawks view of life. He can see what I can't see in my human experience. He can see the unknown blessings being made manifest as we speak and shows up to remind me that everything is perfect and the lines from his favorite songs come to mind "every little thing is gonna be alright" and "don't worry be happy" -I usually put them on in those moments and dance with his spirit and feel the warm embrace of unconditional love between us. (Continue in comments..)