For so long I fought using the word "Jealous& #34; because I never felt like I had much to be jealous of; I was only thinking of the material things, the things I worked hard for. I never wanted to believe that those things would cause so much strife and detachment from people I love or considered friends but deep down I knew the symptoms, I knew envy and jealousy plagued them & ran thru their veins, but it took time for me to realize it wasn't about or just about the tangible things, it's about my tenacity, strength, will power, drive, art of forgiving, mastery of receiving, bearer of light when most would have dimmed into oblivion, a real life sunken place, but I know now. And although I wish no one the burdens I've carried, I wish your jealous ass would at least attempt to be as resilient so then at that point of your growth you can learn to love me wholeheartedly too. Maybe then you can learn to accept love too. Until then, I'll love me enough for the both of us.