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Qing Han  韩青 | Qinni Professional doodler (๑•͈ᴗ•͈)◞✏ 4x open heart surgery survivor (•́⌄•́๑)૭✧ - FAQ account: @qinnih Qinniart @ Twitter Thx for the coffee ☕️💕

The sunny weather outside doesn't match my mood...hahaha...

Just some rambling as usual, feel free to ignore me hahaha.
sorry I haven't really been posting much...
I've been a little stressed. No surprises there haha. The doctors don't know what to do with me or my heart disease, I'm not getting call backs even after doing tests, but most of all as time goes on I feel more and more useless and like...a waste of space...? It's just this feeling of guilt, inadequacy of not being able to do anything to help anyone or even earn a decent living, instead living off my parents because I'm too sick and stressed and busy with rehab stuff to work right now. It doesn't help that my mom's injured her arm and was diagnosed with low white blood cell (low immune system) a few weeks ago...we're like two sick ppl taking care of each other lmao "orz
so yah I've been avoiding social media a bit...I drew this one thing that started off nice and sunny and as my mood worsened it turned sad 😂. I was randomly bursting into tears and shit, and that's not fun lol...
I'm so tired. Thanks for all your support and kind words though....but I'm so tired...of just, like, everything hahaha...
Sorry, rambled again lmaooo you guys must be super tired of reading these depressing-ish shit lmaooo sry, I don't mean to do it but there aren't a lot of ppl I can talk to about this stuff, especially not my family cause it stresses them out lolll~ though if this stressed you out I'm sorrryyyy haha @-@;;; umm thanks for making it this far lol this is a true ramble. Here's a cookie. Wait, it's summer, so here's some ice cream 🍦😆

#illustration #goldfish #summer #mood #procreate

The cover I painted for @noodlerella's next book, Princess in Practice~!

It's finally been revealed officially, so I can post this now~! Yay!
I was still recovering from surgery when I did this so I'm really thankful the editor gave me a looot more time since the hospitalization and surgery was so unexpected xD;. Also cause I really wanted to work on it😆~ I hope you guys like it~!

#art #illustration #watercolor #silhouette #painting

There's only one reason I'm doing this and it's cause I can include the best one, on the right bottom 😂 #eyememe #bandwagon

Sry, gonna ramble about my medical condition rn, feel free to just ignore.
Got some not great news at the hospital yesterday though nothing is for sure yet, but they found new abnormal growth in my heart again from the CT scan I had taken on Tue. This is the same growth that made me have pretty much allll my surgeries hahahaahahjaahahaha....I'm beyond stressed right now. Like. Beyond. *internal screaming*

👑♥️Queen of Hearts ♥️👑

Thanks for coming to the stream for this guys~~ I pretty much did almost all the colours on stream, I think? Now I just need a good webcam so I can stream the pencilling part too, one day...
I dunno why I keep posting on days I gotta go to rehab lol...I'm so tired argh. Saaaave meeeee I don't wanna goooooo 😂😭😭....also to the doctor's appointment afterwards....u_u;;

#art #illustration #aliceinwonderland #queen #skull

"Daydreaming ✨🐟"

Thank you guys for 2 Mil followers omfg 😱😱😱
I'd love to be verified by @instagram by now tho 😂😭😭 pleaseeee~~
Also, thank you guys who came to my stream to watch this get slowly painted hahaha~ I spent so long on this ahhh I hope you guys like it 😭😭
Gotta go to rehab soon so that's funnnnnnnnn haaaahaha....

#illustration #mermaid #surreal #fish #art

"Stardust Ballerina"

A little #fbf #throwback
I kinda miss using my gold ink~~

#illustration #ballet #watercolor

Initial sketch vs Cleanup~

I wanted finish this today but I'm weak and...yeah, that didn't happen. But hey, I saw my initial sketch and my cleanup side by side and thought it looked kinda cool so I'm dropping it here haha, hope you guys don't mind.
Now I gotta get ready for my exercise rehab~

#sketch #illustration #fish #surreal

"The Moon whispered to the Star..."

A little #tbt cause I'm so slow at working anything these days ahhhh sorry~

Happy pride month 💕🌈

So I've started exercise rehab recently. I'm so tired lol. It seems like as soon as my heart rate goes above 90-100, my left arm starts hurting as per my old symptoms 😭. They're ordering another CT scan for me soon...hoping it's nothing big Ahhh.
I'm so tired. It's hard to be hopeful at this point but thanks to everyone who tries to cheer me up haha, thank you guys...

#illustration #moon #stars #love

A little work in progress~

sorry I haven't posted in so long. I've been working on a book cover and can't show it until the book comes out. Also I was recovering from the surgery and so I've been drawing a lot more slowly than normal...cause I nap a lot loll...or just lie down cause my back hurts D;.
But I can't wait to show you guys the coverrrrr I spent so long on it and it wrestled with me but I think it turned out decently yay~!!

So my heart disease still has no diagnosis or similar cases, and I've been referred to a lot of different specialists...so that'll be fun...seeing all the doctors, doing all the tests and trying all the drugs...in fact, I'm wearing a holter monitor right now haha "orz...well let's hope something sticks so I won't need a heart transplant 😂😭😭

#illustration #queenofhearts #skull #wip #sketch

I heard its #mermay ! But I don't have any time to draw anything decent for it right now, I'm still working on a thing that'll hopefully be done soon. When it's out officially I'll post it 😆
Btw, I'm more active on Twitter these days cause I'm not too fond of the FB algorithms haha;;;

I'm actually super stressed today lol. I gotta go see my cardiologist for the first time post discharge, and my body has recently started showing signs that my heart's still not too good right now...I need to talk to the doctor and I'm so stressed cause in my head I keep thinking I'll need surgery again....most of the time I just try not to think about it haha...
So anyways, here's a #throwback 😆

#mermaid #cat #illustration

Just a bit of a process from a drawing I did while hospitalized. Debated with myself if I should post this or not but since I got nothing else...haha...
I'm working on a book cover right now when I'm not resting (and I rest a lot lol) so I don't have anything to show yet, sorry XD~
Music: Junichi Kamiyama - poetry of wind
Pencil- platinum Japan pro-use 3, but the tip bends easily so if you drop it, it may break...not sure if recommend? Lol

2010 vs 2018

This is an old idea I decided to redo; I actually started this before I was hospitalized, and finished in the hospital lol. I guess I felt the despair more in the hospital...? Haha..

Sorry, I've got nothing new haha~ still recovering slowly D;.
I'm going to go see avengers next week though, I'm so excited! Gonna go early and leave after everyone else leaves so I don't break from people running into me lmao~

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