Recently I received an anonymous handwritten love letter of sorts from a student. It was sweet, and full of gratitude, vulnerability and an honesty that really touched me. They said that I appear as though I'm always happy and things are just perfect. They asked about my fears and insecurities-- what was beyond the "alluring" yoga teacher qualities of equanimity, calm and ease?
To you, and to anyone else who thinks their [yoga] teacher is beyond the stuff of humans I say, "Ha!" Shall I begin?
I fear for the future of our country and the health of mother earth. I worry about my parents aging. I worry about my friends getting divorced, sick, injured or dying. I worry about messing things up with friends lovers and students. I worry about how my hair looks and my shorts fit. I worry about getting fat and eating too much crap. I worry about not doing enough and all that "should" crap. I worry about you, because we're the same, just wearing different outfits. I worry about babies being brought into this world at this crazy time. I worry about disease, war, cyberattack, oil companies, big food companies, big nonprofits here to "help," losing my loved ones, addiction rearing her head again, crashing my motorcycle, no one showing up for class, no one coming on retreat, I worry about letting you down.
And of course the list goes on and on.
Please remember that your teachers, mentors, gurus, guides are absolutely 100% HUMAN! And if they say otherwise, perhaps find a new teacher. They mess up, they hurt, they fear and worry. We all have shadows and a past. We all bleed and die. The question is whether we also get back up and start again. *
So there, how's that for fears and insecurities?* *photo by @lightonnature - Steve Adams *
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