hi friends! I know it’s summer and some of you might be feeling the pressure of not having a summer body or having to socialize in settings where everyone’s in bathing suits or shorts and I FEEL YOU.
I wanted to show this pic of me from a year ago. I thought I looked so hot. And I did! BUT in reality, I was reeeeal deep in an eating disorder and tons of anxiety. I could barely eat anything without feeling like shit and throwing up.
Fast forward to now and I feel great. But it’s a daily thing. A thing that’s gonna stick with me for a while. And to everyone out there struggling with food or body image etc, the first step is telling someone. Acknowledging what’s going on and that you don’t have control. Let it out! See a therapist! Or maybe just tell your best friend first if it seems too scary💖
I guess what I’m trying to get at is that I missed out on so much, so many fun times and experiences, because I hated my body and what people said about it. I binged and purged until I didn’t even know myself anymore.
I don’t want you to ever miss out on life because of your insecurities, your eating disorder, your anxiety. I thought my life would “finally start” when I lost weight and looked like I did in high school. But that’s bullshit. Your life is right now!!! Go out and live it. You’re not too big or fragile or insecure to fall in love, to swim in the ocean, to wear a crop top.
And if you do feel like you’re falling back into destructive patterns or starting one, remember that there are so many good people and professionals that can help you.
Now go enjoy the sun! I love u guys💗💗💗