I've experienced a lot of loss, but not having you around has made it the saddest and loneliest I've ever felt in my life. I think of you all the time and it always hurts. It's been over a year and it hasn't gotten any easier. I'm still as heartbroken as the day I found out we lost you. Every day this week I have found myself myself crying on my drive home from work, without even really thinking about it. I miss you man. I miss your criticism, I miss all our inside jokes, I miss how hard we would make each other laugh, it always made me wish the world could be in on it because our friendship was dope. I have spent a lot of time asking for you to give me something, one more funny or happy moment, a joke in my dream, some kind of sign, anything. Thank you for making me smile today. The timing was perfect. This isn't even the best picture of you that I have, but because it's your birthday I had just been looking at it when I realized that Alicia Keys' "No One" was playing on the radio at work. I must have zoned out because the song was already half way through when I realized it was on. It made me remember us hanging out, it probably wasn't too long after I had first met you. That song was playing and you started to sing along, you were making a joke out of it and changing the lyrics, but it was so funny especially because you thought you were dope, you really thought you sung it really well, you would end up singing it whenever you got a chance for a long time. At some point, without knowing it we had simultaneously made that song the ring tone for each other on our T-Mobile Sidekicks. I was at a coworkers house, wondered if there was a ring tone for that, and made it your ring tone, and you literally called me a few minutes later Your timing was always on point. You said, "next time we hang out, you gotta call my phone." I told you, "ok, but you gotta call my phone too." We both suspected we had done the same thing, but we didn't want to ruin the joke, and were too excited to keep it a secret and ended up telling each other over the phone right then.