READ: Time to get real with you guys. Before the beginning of this summer I was a bit of a degenerate. Nothing serious though. Just doing the stupid shit teens do. And then I found the Altright. I found people who were trying to save the world and a race, people who gave a damn. And I loved getting involved so damn much, I had found a something to love, fight for, and die for. I had started turning my life around; I gave up gaming completely, I started improving myself physically, I started doing research and learning as much as I could, I found God, and I was truly happy. Fast forward to Charolettesville and the start of school. I went into the world that I had once known, a world where you could do stupid shit and get away with it. I held fast until after Charolettesville. You see, part of my joy about being a part of the Altright was the fact that I had so many connections to the group via their main server. I was a mod on that server. But it got taken down, the Stormer got taken down repeatedly, Murdoch Murdoch getting taken down, and in general the group fractured. This left me on my own pretty much. Europe is dying more and more by the minute, South African whites are being viciously slaughtered, and Trump is cucking a bit. All in all it's been a black pill. I started gaming again, haven't been exercising, haven't done research in a good while, and haven't gone to God. I've even vaped a couple times, something that I thought I'd never do. I became the old me again only much sadder. I've done stupid shit again to try and cheer myself up. But I've realized that this is pointless, that this mild depression will only get worse with the more I do. I'm on my way bouncing back to my former self. Please, pray to me. Pray to Jesus Christ if you're Christian and pray to heathen gods if you're pagan. I need as much help as I can. Thanks for listening, peace.