From time to time, I go through a period of public silence. Social media blackout. It’s not intentional—I actually don’t notice that I’m doing it, for awhile at least. I just silently creep up onto a time that I have nothing to share, and feel too vulnerable to open up to the public en masse. Some days, I think I have something to share with the world, and other days, I don’t know who I am or why on earth I have business opening up to the public, in the first place. On those days, I consider shutting down my profiles and websites, and disappearing altogether. My mind questions my validity in this life, especially in being a public figure, even if mostly underground. I continuously question what do I even have to offer? (Nothing at all, honestly.) My mind even attempts to make me think I’m off my rocker (or going off the rails of the crazy train, which I’ll never deny), but yet I see this pattern of vulnerability in others, as well, and I can’t discredit myself so quickly.
Ninja (of Die Antwoord) completely deleted his social media’s and hasn’t returned.
Radiohead, for a period, blacked out their accounts and website, and even upon return has deleted all old posts.
Nick Wilsher disappears for months at a time.
Britney Spears shaved her head and completely revolted against the expected.
Ben Jay Crossman ghosts his audience regularly.
And so many more...
I don’t compare myself to any of these people, in the least, but at least my observations go to show me that there are many others that feel similar ways about social media at times—in it can be my success and growth, but also at times it can be my undoing. As an empath, I greatly take on the negative and vampirous energies of those who take the liberty to rip any human being apart via social media (meaning myself) by the threads of the soul, whether for good reason or not. Sometimes by my family, sometimes by my followers—however few—and it lends to a great removal of my energy from this space. Should the masses be punished for the wrongs of a few? In a perfect world, no. But in this season, perhaps even if just for a day, I don’t have anything to present to you.
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