Instagram post by @thejoywarrior rosemary

All of this is so beyond true. My pace for this healing is mine and no one else’s. I’ve tried so hard to do it on someone else’s time table. Or in the way that they want me to and that leaves me feeling so very less than. Like I’m not trying hard enough. I do know what growth looks like. It’s moving forward when I can. Being horizontal when I need to. Throwing fits when I need to. Showing up along the way. And maybe not showing up. I find joy along the way. Find those tiny spectaculars. Drown and surface again. Only I can do this healing thing for me and at the same time, I cannot do it alone. My pace is like a roller coaster right now because I’m trying so hard to show up to be something or someone to be proud of. I’m trying so hard AND I’m so tired. I’m in so much pain that I’m sick. I’m trying to be better and do better because I don’t want to let people down. And the person I am failing is me. I’m sitting in that small room of me apologizing to my self. I’m so tired. Healing at my own pace. And starting over day after day after day. I’m tired. I’m just so very tired. And I’m surrendering again. I’m too tired for a tantrum. I just surrender. .
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#Joywarrior #surrendering #whiteflag #healing #brainsurgery #recovering #reallifestory #thisismystory #sacredspace

14 Comments

  • 14w ago sevenstars8jane sevenstars8jane

    ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • 14w ago claudia_mcdonald5 claudia_mcdonald5

    Start over tomorrow, at your own pace. Let grace fill in the rest for everyone else. You’re amazing, and perfect and divine just as you hard. That was a hard lesson for me to learn

  • 14w ago fitnessbillie fitnessbillie

    All of this is presently what I am ❤️🎁 #this #gift

  • 14w ago erinseanpatrick erinseanpatrick

    All we can do is be true . With love, erin

  • 14w ago momunity momunity

    LOVE

  • 14w ago candycanebelle candycanebelle

    @fat.von.double.d

  • 14w ago fat.von.double.d fat.von.double.d

    @candycanebelle 💜💜💜💜

  • 14w ago britnyslade britnyslade

    💪😘

  • 14w ago grannieiswright grannieiswright

    Just. one. thing. At. A. Time. Yawn lay down and yawn and stretch a little. Mentally hug yourself! Cause I'm sure giving you one in my mind! There's NO ONE LIKE YOU! we ❤u!

  • 14w ago suezsnaps suezsnaps

    Surrender is COURAGEOUS....never doubt or downplay that nugget O’truth! Warrior On, Love!💕💕💕💕

  • 14w ago susancimmino susancimmino

    I love this. So true! 💕

  • 14w ago jillfrezados jillfrezados

    Your best will always be good enough.❤️

  • 14w ago karynlind karynlind

    Oh, Ro you aren’t letting yourself down. Sit. Be still. Know that God is sitting with you too. And I’m sitting with you. Always. Love you. ❤️

  • 14w ago bearclaw4 bearclaw4

    "You get to start over as many times as it takes." This IS your story, you set the pace, you schedule the breaks when you need them, you get to say what happens. Hang in there! We love you!

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