Instagram post by @alexadenise_13 Alexa Kinder ✨

Cause sometimes it takes a little bit of leaving to find some meaning
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I hope you’re ready.
I’ve been depressed since I was a teen. The level had escalated substantially into my twenties. My depression had reached an all-time high. People I had loved were gone forever. My heart had been shattered. I lost control and I spiraled.
Almost 2 months ago, I attempted to end it all.
I thought my life had no meaning. I thought I was worthless. My depression had taken me so deep into the darkest places I have ever been. I lost friends, I lost love. I had felt so alone. I felt like no one cared truly enough to miss me. The light would dull and burn out and I’d fade away and everything would be okay after that. • •
I still have moments of deep depression. It never fully goes away. I’ve had to make changes in my life that help with my healing. Not everyone is the same, demons come in many forms. Not everyone heals the same, you have to find something that brings you happiness. I had to find my way - which included removing myself from anything that would trigger a slip. I deleted my social media and essentially stayed away from anything that I thought would hurt me. • •
I’m not here to provide exceptional motivation. I’m just here to say you’re not alone. It’s hard and tumultuous and you’ll feel so low. I’m here for you, though. • •
Thank you to all of my loved ones who stuck by me and cared for me and loved me despite my trying to push you away. I hope you know how much I love and appreciate you all so dearly.

16 Comments

  • 19w ago itscarson itscarson

    wishing you light health and happiness lady. you aren’t alone in this battle. the human experience is a messy one but how grand to say you grew and made it through 🧡

  • 19w ago luckyretro13 luckyretro13

    You’re so brave for sharing girl! I’ve had pretty major depression on and off throughout my life, and this past year has been rough. You’re never alone❤️❤️ so glad you’re doing better **hugs***

  • 19w ago _hwebb _hwebb

    So sorry to hear what you’ve been going through but just know you’re only going to get stronger from here. Always a listening ear if you need one 💛 thanks for sharing your story

  • 19w ago oliviagoldman oliviagoldman

    You are sincerely loved and missed here, Alexa 💗

  • 19w ago m3lloza m3lloza

    Thank you for sharing your story ❤️ every time I see you you bring me so much joy and fill the room with happiness. I hope you see yourself that way and continue to spread your love. Stay strong beautiful! I’m always here if you need anything.

  • 19w ago savannahjane savannahjane

    I love you.

  • 19w ago nataliedaisy nataliedaisy

    I’ll love you till my heart stops beating. And even after that. ❤️

  • 19w ago chewbacasthong chewbacasthong

    Now stubborn soda! And soggy burritos from Pollos Maria 🍾

  • 19w ago from.hell.to.heaven from.hell.to.heaven

    Hey I know we haven't talked since high school, and I remember the first time I shaved my mustache in Junior year, you told me never to do it again because I have a baby face if I did. Since then, I never have. Thank you for that critical honesty. Through it all Alexa, you are an awesome person and I wish you nothing but happiness in whatever road life takes you next.

  • 19w ago _brysa_ _brysa_

    💕♥️😘😢

  • 19w ago sadiewalter sadiewalter

    I love youuu

  • 17w ago techsmafia techsmafia

    nice

  • 17w ago alexadenise_13 alexadenise_13

    @techsmafia not nice, but glad to know that reading is hard for you.

  • 11w ago misshottkiss misshottkiss

    I just wanted to say that the original post was automated and I'm sorry to read what you are going through. This is amazing for you to share 💕

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