Tonight I went to Tyresta Nationalpark to spread Ebba’s ashes into the wind and let her forever rest at our favorite place in Stockholm. In some periods we would go here weekly to get our special time together and get prepared for hikes. Today was the first time I visited a Nationalpark in Scandinavia without her and it was fucking killing me. I was happy though to see that Daphne really liked it. I don’t know what I would do without her endless positive energy and playfulness. She is really the reason that I keep my shit together.
I’m still thinking a lot on how to honor Ebba in a deeper way, I want her beautiful soul to be remembered. She gave everything and more to everyone in her surrounding and I feel like I barely returned the favor. I always thought of protecting her in every possible way and yet she left this world because of an extremely unusual bacteria. I worried about everything but things like that never struck my mind. I just can’t find peace with her leaving so early.