Ever felt alone in middle of a crowd?
If so then your with me, read the whole story for the past few months.
Brokeup with someone and felt great! Well, it was just for sometime. The journey to find her in someone else was very tough, dated many and moved on. But, well it was never a success. It was just a way to forget her existence. Blocked on facebook, blocked on instagram, blocked on Viber, and almost every social medias and the way i could communicate with her. Felt better, just for a day. Well, blocked on heart?? Well, it was an error. Again in the search of seeing her in someone else began. Well, again!! No success.
Life went on, i kind of compromised myself within my silence and kept the search on. Found No one! Cause honestly, no one like her existed. Then i realized that, i am wrong! If i had to find her in someone then why couldnot I find her in her. It was my fault. So, i stopped searching her in someone else. Thought of getting back to her but, it was like going to the moon without oxygen. Cause its impossible. And yes, i stopped the search.
Now, the main question! What will i do, what will i go through and who would understand me. I faked that i have forgotten her, movedon, faked happiness and faked every move of mine.
Solitarily, i was moving on with no destination in my life. Prolly like a monkey chasing for Banana with no idea which tree it grows.
Lost my bestfriend. Friendship that was eternity, failed. Lost trust on people, lost trust on love. Lost the trust in me.
But? I gathered myself quite well, and dared to love again. But this time, with different perspective, different opinion and with my heart. Met an old time crush on instagram, cause she followed me and honestly i had noticed her alot. Actually, alot.😅 That was simply beautiful, the one who u loved as a crush; is crushing you back and forth with an envelope of love towards you. Thats eternal love. No one could deny the fact that its not beautiful, cause it was beautiful 💓
Now, i am happy. Cause i dont find her in someone else. But i find my crush in my crush. Crush by here doesn’t mean the people i show off in my instagram, but the crush by here means...
To be continued.