Recently life pushed me into a situation where I was compelled to explain my intentions to a person that made very negative, far fetched and untrue assumptions about me.
Life was also kind enough to give me time to stop the knee-jerk reaction to attempt to justify my actions, or to establish an open communication.
I am grateful to have an awareness of what leaks my energy. Mostly, I attribute that awareness to ashtanga.
I practice daily, for a specific amount of time to: - look only where I'm supposed to look, no matter who and what is around, - inhale and exhale exactly when and for how long I'm supposed to, no matter how tough or easy the pose is, no matter how distracting my mind gets, no matter how scared am I of the pose that's coming next, - move without glory of exaggerated additions, without subtraction of feared parts of movement.
It taught me that the less I waste my energy on impressions of how it looks, the better I actually get.
It taught me that the stories of the mind are soooo convincing, but the truth and the simplicity of doing your thing day in and day out proves it all to be lies, regardless of who created them: me, my close ones, those I don't even know.
So, I simply looked away from my fear of opinions, fear of uncomfortable future that hasn't happened yet, fear of "reputation". Because feeding it all my attention screws up my vinyasa 😊
Here is to ashtanga... here is to GOOD TEACHERS of ashtanga... @davidrobsonayct
Video of a totally new #mayarasana #peacock vinyasa for me for the #dontsmashyourface #challenge
Cheers and good night