@ngjocelyn Hello Little one, I know it had been a long journey since Aug till now. You had been through so much that one cannot expect it or handle it. From the persistent vomiting, the headaches, the spasms and combination of all the worst thing you can ever think of, you had encountered it. Sometimes I ask myself, why you of all people? Why so cruel to you, we were just enjoying our lives and so many dreams we want to fulfill together. And suddenly this happened to you. As much as you can handle it and show everyone how brave you are how tough you and never show how rough this path to recovery is. The moments when you finally break down, all the tears all the suffering and all the expectations your loves one gave you, we are not you, you are the only one that know how it really feels. I can say you don’t deserve this shit and crap NMO. All the pain, all the needles, endless medicine, endless tests and scans, endless diagnostic and speeches and advices doctors, and everyone give you, you don’t need all this my dear,I know all you want is a simple and happy family and a carefree life.
You always asked me for my true feelings and why I never exactly show how I felt in front of you in front of everyone. You are the closest person to me and every single event you had to went through i felt the knife stabbing my heart, I might not feel physically mentally but I can tell you something you are the bravest person I ever met. If I were you I probably break down and give up easily. From you i see determination, courage, inspiring, positivity and the never give spirit. I am so proud of you!!! I just wanna tell you I will always be there for you this lifetime and many more. I will never give up on you.
This brand new year let’s work hard together, our new house coming, your goals of walking by CNY and our travel plans this year!!! I love you!!