✨WORLD SUICIDE PREVENTION DAY✨ ••• 9 years ago, I sat down with my mom and brother and told them the most terrifying thing I’ve ever had to tell another person: “I’m afraid I’m going to kill myself.” •••
I’d been fighting so hard, for so long, but no matter what I tried, I rarely got a break from panic attacks. I’d catch my breath and almost immediately my head felt like it was being held under water again. I was exhausted from fighting something that truly felt inevitable.
I’d read about someone who’d lost their battle and break down crying, while the voice inside my head told me it was only a matter of time before it was me. A life that ended another way was unimaginable. Yet, somehow, through all of it, there was always another voice saying, “You need to figure this out so you can help others.” And so I held on. And, much to my own surprise, I created a path forward.
I wanted to serve and lead people fighting the same battle out, to be a guide out of the darkness and into the light. I’m alive today because I had all of you in my heart long before we ever connected here. And today I just want to say thank you. Thank you for being my purpose, for allowing me into your feeds & your inboxes, for trusting me & supporting my work, for telling me you feel like I’m your best friend, for believing me when I tell you there is hope for you. Thank you for being my friends — I love you all so much 💖