~i am scared to post this but i wanted to share a lil story because it's been a year - ptw: eating disorders~
between these two photos are two completely different girls, physically and mentally.
the first photo is september 2016, the second is from yesterday, -64lbs
a year ago today i decided to officially just say fuck it and go for it. i went vegetarian, started exercising more, & completely changed my diet/lifestyle. I ended up losing 30lbs by march 2017 and was extremely happy and obviously kept going but then that's when things took a turn.
i started having trouble with eating and was starting to restrict my food while over exercising. it wasn't until summer when i got worse because at first i didn't realize what i was doing. months passed and i still lost more weight. it got to a point where i wasn't eating all day and was binge eating at night.
that's when i opened up to my therapist and she ended up diagnosing me with anorexia in august.
i'm in no way i'm a good place right now. to be blunt with it but right now i'm starting a program to take down this ed and god damn is it hard but everyday i push through harder and present myself with the biggest confidence even if i don't fully feel it.
it's a happy/not-so-happy one year anniversary of my weight loss but i'm still proud of myself for getting myself through all the bullshit