I remember when I first moved back to Colorado when I left my husband, I had a job where I drove around all over Colorado checking in on my territory. I swear, maybe at least the first 6 months, I would cry every single time. The car was my only safe spot as liam wasn’t with me and living with my parents, nobody was around. I remember just being so so heart broken and devastated. I didn’t know how God could make me ever feel normal again. But I trusted that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them (Romans 8:28). So every day, I leaned into God. I got angry at him sometimes and voiced it to him at times when things just seemed to be so unfair but I always pressed into him. In the end, I learned how good of a God he really is. I could go on and on but my soul is dancing on the promises of the Lord. My beloved man, asked me to marry him on Labor Day. To have a man who loves the Lord first is all this heart of mine has ever wanted. Because with that, there’s so many treasures that will pour into our family. A man of character and integrity. A man who loves little Liam oh so much. A man who just will smile at me and just stare into my eyes to the point where I feel uncomfortable and look away because I’m just not used to this feeling of just being truly treasured. And for someone who might be reading this, who once too has suffered or is suffering exponential loss of a marriage. I promise you my friend, keep on the track. Keep your eyes on Jesus and he will heal your heart. And one day, when you least expect it, you will meet your future spouse. A spouse who will show you what real love looks like, one that God always intended for you to have.