I'm SO fed up of spending my life hating on myself, telling myself that I can't be happy until I'm perfect, telling myself I am not good enough for someone until I have this certain look and constantly comparing myself to others on social media, wondering why I'm not like them, I don't have their life or I don't have their body or that they're skinnier than me etc.
I'm in a constant battle in my head that I'm not good enough for anyone or even for myself.
I'm so fed up of listening to every single persons view on my body and taking it to heart, being told I'm too fat for someone's preference or don't have abs (even though they were not my boyfriend) and then constantly telling myself that that must be how my boyfriend sees me too. And then to try make them see me differently by working out only for that basis, instead of focusing on making MYSELF happy and working out for my own goals and health. Im trying to teach myself how to self love and fuck everyone else's opinion, because at the end of the day - everybody will have an opinion and sometimes it will be a bad one. But they do not validate me.
I have suffered from this all of my adult life and have constantly tore myself apart to the point of depression this year. But today I'm making a stand as I'm so fed up of feeling this way! I'm going to start telling myself - love yourself, yes there's people out there who may have a better this or a better that, however no one is perfect and above all NOBODY can do me better than me!
Appreciate what you have. I should just be grateful for the fact that I have loving and supportive family, friends and boyfriend, and I have all of my limbs and senses.
Learn to love what you have, life is just too short.
#mentalhealthawareness ✌🏼 (P.s I wanted to get my shoes in the pic... 😜 #selfpromotion, #ipaintedthat)