The strongest man I will ever know, the one who gave me life and all my inspiration was reduced to a shell of himself, sent to watch over us from above. My Dad was truly the example of all things genuine and pure with a life full of incredible accomplishments. I will miss him with every fiber of my being but rejoice that so much of him and his spirit continues in me. I have never been more proud or felt more honored to have been the daughter of this man. Thank you for all the outpouring love and check in's. I will be okay no matter how bad I wish I could wake up every day and be told by him that it's just a bad dream.. But being aware of the quiet I have inside me and my fathers strength is what brings me back to understanding how short and fragile every day is and how much more thankful I am to have the pleasures and memories, by having the father I had by my side, for the last 26 years. And for you all, because of him. For now, I am trying to find peace. I will praise the lord that he has ended my Dads pain as I start to embrace my own. I will sit with my sadness knowing it will pass through me if I stop fighting it off.. and when a long moment has passed, I will keep focusing on what I have learned from my Dad and what is eternal. Love, forgiveness, grace, kindness, and the gift of life and family itself. My fathers love will never fail and his spirit will never die. Life is truly a delicate balance of staying true to oneself, fighting and learning to let go, being vulnerable and standing strong in every circumstance, finding purpose and the courage to show up and be seen even when I have no control over the fear or outcome. These are the lessons I am entirely living out now that my Dad has passed away... Even when I thought I had, I didn't know the strength before. But after this truly initiating experience, I do now. And that no matter how empty I will feel- I am part of a much bigger whole because of him. Life is not about you hense forward, but you are about life. I promised my Dad I will continue to carry him and honor what he has instilled within me until I get to see him again and hear him tell me how proud he is.
I love you to the moon and back, Dad