In the last month, since my dad has been diagnosed with cancer I've been so much more in depth with life- you realize you are going to be moved and confused by it and sometimes, just angry with it. You are going to experience things that will inspire you, and things that you will never quite come to terms with. You are going to love people that you will sometimes lose, but you will also find those who stay. Appreciate those people so much, let them know that you care. You are going to laugh until you cry, you’re going to ache in ways you never thought possible; you are going to be exhausted by the chaos of it all and ignited by the beauty. You are going to be hurt, and you are going to hurt, you'll experience heart break like never before. Sometimes you will be the "go-to" person. And sometimes you will be the one who makes the mistake, which these things will seem so much more clear. Sometimes you will have to give yourself your own closure too- I still don't know if I have accepted any of what my dad is going through simply because I can't imagine. But within that; sometimes you will have to let go and accept things you might not want to. You will have to find comfort in being alone sometimes, in being lost, not knowing what emotions are surging through your soul and you will have to find the strength to not let the ones around for you think that you're turning cold. Yes, this is life, and it can be unpredictable and messy, though it can break you down- you are going to survive it. You will always survive it and in moments when you feel like you can't, you will find the smile. I'm trying to let it hurt so I can try to let it heal. I live everyday with a little more intent. I appreciate the moments for what they are; the snapshots like this, of what make me realize that through all the pain in my heart lately, I still am pretty damn strong. I just want whoever is investing their time in my page, reading this, to be reminded that life is so delicate and to never take a moment for granted. Live. We have to live. Be scared. Take chances and never let down on anything because you never know when it might not be within reach again.