(1/2) After getting over the initial shock of being eliminated, I’ve had time to reflect and decided it would be unlike me to not share my genuine feelings.
Ultimately, although I realize it is a reality television show, it hurts to have been eliminated. I’ve been sent direct messages about how entitled my personality comes across and how egotistical I am. I want these people to know that after being knocked down so many times, my self-confidence is something I’ve truly had to work to build. At the end of the day, to be told that my personality sucks is truly hurtful and this has led me to question myself. I will not apologize to anyone I’ve offended because the sarcastic, dry person I have become is someone that truly loves herself and I’ve had to crawl up from the lowest of places to do so.
As far as DWTS goes, I am eternally grateful for the experience of being on the show. After competing for so long on my own, competing with a partner was something I’d really wanted. It was everything and more than I could’ve asked for. It was the reward I was looking for after years of working to achieve an Olympic medal. From dancing amongst a sea of Mickey ears to portraying a BO$$ woman, the experience was truly magical. However, it was definitely not easy. It was not easy to be pitted against and then lose to one of my best friends. It was also not easy to sleep an average of 3-4 hours every night and to learn a style of dance that I’d never even heard of before. Not only that, to have a skating show later that day and in a different city every day wasn’t easy. For those difficult moments, my skating family was always there and for that I am grateful. To have them wake me when I’d fallen asleep mid-show is a kindness I will not forget. While this was a demanding experience, it was the best time I’ve ever had because the hard work was incredibly rewarding.
I have also loved meeting all of the people who make DWTS a possibility. From the field producers to the makeup artists who erased the bags from under my eyes, I truly enjoyed being a part of the show. #dwts