So many of you asked what religion I "lost" in my 10yr challenge post (Swipe right and I reposted my caption below). It was Christianity. But an EXTREMELY conservative group. I didn't swear, didn't date, didn't wear make up, dressed modestly, only listened to Christian music, only read Christian books, no rated R movies, only had Christian friends, didn't kiss till I was married, read my bible every day, smiled at everyone, only said nice things, tried to be perfect, etc.
Things meant for good but carried to an extreme, and it became so unhealthy for me. I had a very skewed perspective of the world. I thought it was evil. I only thought about pleasing and listening to god, my parents, my husband. Never to my own soul. I was constantly worried and guilty. I know religion (or a relationship with god) is life changing for some people, and I'm not knocking that. I'm just sharing my own experiences.
For me, breaking free from those rigid rules and ways of thinking was the most liberating and wonderful thing I have ever experienced. Realizing I am responsible for my own happiness and that it's okay, and healing, and good, to listen to my heart and chase things that bring me life ☀
#findyourstrong #insideandout #10yrchallenge
2nd pic caption:
2 kids, the loss of a brother, 4 miscarriages, the loss of a religion, a divorce, a hell of a lot of learning and facing my fears, resentment, forgiveness, chasing fitness, following my soul, self love, saying goodbye to old friends and finding new ones, learning to listen to myself, still knowing I have so far I want to go❤️