Ok so this is the first post I've put up in a long time but I've just been going through hell. No-hell would actually be better. Now don't get me wrong I’m not suicidal, but if a car came while I was crossing the street I don’t think I’d move and if someone held a gun to my head I wouldn’t exactly beg for my life in fact id laugh and tell them go for it. No I’m not suicidal but if I had the chance to die without killing myself I’d probably take it. I don't really know what to do anymore. And yeah I'm strong, I've been keeping myself alive on a thin string, barely holding on but now that string has broken and I'm at my lowest I've been in forever and no one was here to pick me back up. I really do know who my friends are now though, no one. And I want to ask for help. I don't want to be strong anymore... I just want help. I want someone to save me because I'm done fighting.