I started taking prozac when I was 16 years old after placing my son for adoption. I was so so sad and depressed (for obvious reasons) and I just never stopped taking them (minus the nine months of being pregnant with Brielle). After a bad break up, I added wellbutrin to the mix. A side-effect was weight loss which was awesome! As much as I loved that, it also made it so hard to get off of. Whenever I would try, I would put weight on and it would spin me back into depression so I just decided to keep taking it. Somewhere throughout the years I started taking Phentermine off and on which is prescribed to people who are obese.
I also cycled between Adderall and Vyvance which also made me not eat.
Popping pills was part of my life. I always went to a pill for help with weight loss, energy and happiness. I was totally unconscious about all of it. Then in June of 2017, I felt a strong calling to get off of all of it. It was a sacred calling that I will share with you one day. 😊 So, with the help of @thetawellnesscenter_sandy , I went through their 30 day detox program and over time, weaned off it all. It has truly been one of my biggest accomplishments. I put 10 lbs on, I had no energy and I had to feel really hard emotions. Yet all of it was worth it. I had amazing support from my friends and family which made all the difference. I am literally prescription drug free for what feels like the first time in my life!
What has evolved since then, is what I really want to talk about. 💫Healing💫Once you remove the numbing agent you start feeling, thinking and seeing in a much deeper way! Learning how to feel my emotions has been incredibly difficult. But it has been the cure. Healing from past traumas, childhood wounds, the loss of my father, sexual abuse, being villainized on The Bachelor, placing my son for adoption, divorce… It has been a really rough few years, but what has evolved from that has been life changing. It has changed me to the core and Im ready to talk about it! To be continued...❤️ photo cred to @aimeemayphotography