Thank you all SO much for all the sweet messages I got yesterday. Whether it was on facebook, instagram, a text, messenger or a phone call, every single one of your messages means the world to me <3
This year has been tough for me, and turning 25 has been a rollercoaster of happiness, heartbreak, denial and acceptance. When I was in my late teens someone in the film industry told me that if you haven't made it by 25 you're never going to. And even though times are changing and I know that isn't completely true anymore (I see people (women) in their mid 30's breaking through all over the world) that statement really stuck with me. At the age of 17 I started an ongoing battle against my age. When I turned 19, I celebrated my 18 birthday for a second time. When I turned 23 I fell into depression, and all through my 24th year I dreaded the day when I would finally turn 25. To me it felt as if doom itself was approaching. This year I didn't even want to celebrate, I didn't even want to get out of bed, hiding under the covers and pretend this day never happened seemed like the only reasonable thing to do.
Therefore I want to thank the most important person in my life, my mom, who's also the most amazing, strong and intelligent person I've ever met. Thank you for dragging me out of bed and giving me the best day. But more importantly, thank you for showing me that a birthday isn't just a celebration of you. It's a celebration of all the people surrounding you, who's a part of your life. It's a celebration that I get to wake up to a new day, surrounded by friends and family. That I get to keep trying, keep dreaming and keep living.
So from the bottom of my heart. Thank you to every single one of you <3