This week’s #FitRepublic challenge was to tell a story... so here’s mine
Bentley was my dog, my best friend, my counselor, my love and he was my child.
December 14, 2016 was the day I lost all of those things; all at the same time... Bentley began having seizures 4 months prior out of seemingly nowhere. They became progressively worse to the point that my entire days would revolve around taking care of him. I would give him his medicine first thing in the morning, come home on my break to do it again, then again on my lunch break, again after work, at dinner time, before bed and at the end of it all we even had to wake him up in the middle of the night to give him more... Bentley was only 9 years old and he had cancer. 💔😥 You see; we couldn’t have children. It wasn’t in the cards. Therefore our dogs became those for us.
So when that first seizure happened I felt the walls start to crumble around me... I knew something was horribly wrong. We tried everything but honestly, thinking back, there wasn’t really much else we could do for him. The cancer was quick and aggressive and his seizures started becoming more frequent and violent as the medication just slowly stopped working. That last night he barely climbed on my lap and we watched one last movie together (that was our thing) before his final seizure started. But unlike the others this one never stopped... after a few of the longest hours of my life I had to make the call to drive him to the vet in the middle of night and do the ONE THING I always said I would NEVER do... i had to give him peace. ❤️😭 That night, as I felt that last seizure finally stop and the life leave his body was the night my life changed. The walls were no longer crumbling; they suddenly imploded all around me and I fell apart.
I’ve never felt heartbreak like that before and I still feel it today. It was at that moment that I couldn’t fake the “FB smile” anymore and I couldn’t keep hiding the demons I was dealing with inside of my head on a daily basis. My Bentley was literally the scotch tape that was holding me together. (See comments below for the rest of the story)
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