meredithadelaide meredithadelaide

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Damn though. I've been wanting more, the thoughts creeping into my mind that I gotta be somewhere else. Comparing goals to current-day as if I need everything RIGHT NOW to be happy with myself. Been trying to picture what I'd even do if I had those things this moment. And... I'd be the same person. So, even though I think I want more, I don't need it. I have so, so much as it is. Going to spend more time being thankful instead of thinking I'm worth less because of what I don't have. I'll always have enough, like legit will always and forever be enough (you, too). still from @peterborrud

AHHHHH! I'm going colorful crazy inside. Words have been completely escaping my mind and settling silent in my body charging energy that I am putting back into both art and being a solid sense of myself. I'm SO VAGUE. I don't know what changed BUT I do know that I've so much art to share but I've not been able to share anything directly to you. I'm questioning doing a patreon to at least update to private supporters my private progressions, but I'm scared of it for no reason. I'm living without a home (8 month mark in April) because I can't support myself just doing this, which is working out finding floors/couches/air-mattresses with favors and trade, but...it feels like time for another change or shift. Uncertain to your response to the idea of supporting my work financially, I'm not made for a world that focuses on money, but, I do feel like I'm made for you. I wonder how things will work out, but I also know I'm in charge of my choices. Which is why my insides are like "why aren't you eating why aren't you financially stable yet wait I love you you're doing great keep expressing yourself you don't need anything learn how to live off the land you could make a treehouse you're fine where you are you've so many projects you gotta keep talking to people you've gotta keep writing and making music and videos and sharing your random shit to every lyft driver you use why are you spending money on lyft why don't you have a car why don't you have a home wait but first you're great you're perfect as you are no judgment my sweet self you're going to be fine" etc etc.

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every word, every thought made

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Los Angeles!
Now booking as model or photog!

LA
3/25 - 3/29

no instructions how

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until I recognize there's nothing left

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my mind swells to an invisible space

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how does life keep happening
over and over and over

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everybody needs a body

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I am letting go of _______ and creating _______ for myself today // Fill in the blanks, write out the whole sentence.

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if I sit in silence maybe I will start surrendering

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How often do you really, truly sit with yourself? Let yourself think and feel everything that comes? Watch them happen, feel your reactions, let them go, learn a little more? Talk about them? How often do you trust yourself to hear what you've been saying? Are you honest? Is what's in your head mirrored in your heart mirrored in your actions?

brainwash yourself to believe whatever it is you need

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We learn by repitition, huh?

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