you're meant to be here
Another from after the burglary. My thoughts were SO LOUD. I was thinking a lot about the value of a human life. What I considered worthy compared to what my friends do, compared to what my country does, compared what the world does. How anonymous we all are. Then how a platform like this can put me in front of 30k people and how suddenly my sense of responsibility changes, how big I think I feel. And, how upset I am at others for how they choose to value themselves...but also how pointless it is to give a shit about what anyone else is doing because that's time and energy taken away from focusing and shifting my own experience. Everyone is meant to be here. I'm meant to be here, and I'm worthy of making my own life (a note to self). When I had told people about this chase, I got a lot of people telling me how dumb that was of me. How those guys could have had a gun, how I could've been killed very easily. But, I didn't get a gun pulled on me and I didn't get shot. And anyway, if I had died up there, so what?