(📜 warning: very long post ahead 📜) with christmas behind us, it feels like i’m in the clear to make this post (knock on wood), but basically i just wanted to say thank you, and how grateful i am for all of you.
the holidays are often incredibly, incredibly hard for me. being in a weird limbo where i’m old enough to have dead parents but too young to have settled down and created my own version of family yet (and being one of the only people i know in this unique position) can make this time of year feel very isolating.
however, this year felt very different. my friends and family (aka you guys) regularly checked in on me, brought me into your homes for formal dinners and casual hangs, invited me to your hanukkah parties and christmas brunches. you sent me filthy christmas chain mail-style texts, and gave me copies of your favorite records to listen to so that even when i was alone, i wasn’t.
as a result, the weight of those depressive thoughts and dark ideations i’ve come to associate with the holidays was completely absent this year, instead replaced by a lightness - one crafted by all of your aforementioned warm gestures, and for this i simply could not be more thankful.🖤