When the @momentomcollective crew was brought to @wanderlustfest we sat and discussed our intention behind what we are there to do. Individually and collectively our purpose seemed to be aligned with the purpose of the sacred clown. In just about every society, tribe, or religion you can find the archetype of the sacred clown. The heyoka is the sacred clown of the Lokota people, there to speak and react in a opposite way then people expect. Forcing people to question if they are living the life they want to live. To create a performance that not only pokes holes in the things we take too seriously, but to also activate the purpose within that drives us.
I grew up taking dance classes and performing, but somewhere in the midst of being a teenager, performing became too much for me. Too much comparison, too much criticism, too much effort. Women especially are told that it is “sexier” to be more submissive. Ill never forget my boyfriend at the time calling me an attention whore for all of my dramatic antics. My desire to be on stage felt shameful, so I hid from it for years. It wasn’t until I was introduced to the circus community that I felt comfortable to explore performing arts again. A community of empowered and encouraging people, sharing, playing, and co-creating. Sharing the intention to make people feel something through self expression. For a long time i would compartmentalize my life, but with the essence of the sacred clown being present I can feel my art and spirituality beginning to live in harmony.
Through my life experience i have created the “ballerina clown”. An act where i go on a journey of trying to convince the crowd I am something I’m not, and feeling embarrassed when something is not going as “planned”. I soon become exhausted and give up huffing and puffing. I then find my hat, and become a channel for all things circus, funk, and loveeee✨
If you’ve read this far, thank you for your time and your presence, and may you never feel afraid to shine too bright ✨