I’ve taken the last week to stay away from most social media. With this many eyes on me, it’s to the point where I could have a great day or a terrible day & get shit on regardless. And I know now that I have to understand & accept that. I’ve read some of the worst things that have ever been said about me this last week. All from people who have never met me. Don’t know a thing about me except for what they see on stage. The biggest suggestion is “oh don’t listen to the haters, so many people support you”, but when the hate is so strong and attacks you on so many personal levels, it’s impossible to ignore. I won’t pretend that it doesn’t suck that the weightlifting community has turned into some disgusting, hateful collection of people. Like it’s a fun game of who can come up with the most hurtful things to say to get some likes and attention. When this is such a beautiful and empowering sport that has helped and continues to help so many people in so many ways. “Acknowledging them will only make it worse”, fine. Let it be worse for now, so hopefully the next person under this much attention and scrutiny in the weightlifting world won’t experience these same things. There has never been this much exposure of our small, non mainstream sport. It’s growing, & not in the best direction. I was able to make this sport my career because I loved it, I worked at it & I dedicate myself and all my time and energy to it daily. I made a life for myself from this sport. And to almost resent it because of some people I don’t even know? Absolutely not. You’re not taking away the reason I am here. My love for this sport. So the biggest fuck you to those trying their best to tear me apart and the biggest THANK YOU to those who support myself and others chasing their dreams day in and day out. YOU are the people who matter. Here’s a vid of me loving what I do from a few weeks ago, hitting my first ever 300lb clean and jerk. I live to train. I live for the work & the tiniest of improvements. I live to be on stage to do my best & show what I work for, “good enough” or not. If you’re one of those people, I hope this really bothers you. Make a change. Be fucking nicer to people.