Confessions of a Truth Seeker.
I came to Yoga as a young man, and like most of us I suspect, I was not looking for anything in particular, but found that I really enjoyed it and it made me feel very good. Naturally I wanted more of it. As I went into it further, my investigations led me to teachers and books and to India. I found out that the goal of Yoga was enlightenment and there were techniques to get you there.
Without realising it, I was suddenly focusing on techniques and methods and acquiring knowledge and following all the rules and steps to get me to Samadhi. However, one thing didn't sit well with me: as I looked around I didn't see anyone who had followed the rules who had reached the goal. Even those that claimed to have had the higher experiences failed at following the fundamental ethical principles. Also, intuitively, it didn't make any sense that there could be any connection between attaining any posture and enlightenment. .
Ramesh Balsekar, who I used to visit in Mumbai, told me that enlightenment is a concept - anything that is acceptable to one person but not to another is a concept. So you'll see many occasions where some people call a person an enlightened saint, and someone else will say they are a madman. He believed the only truth that we can know for sure is, "I AM", the knowing that I exist - this is something nobody can deny. .
My point is this; we came to Yoga because it made us feel good, it relieved some mental and emotional stress, it made us healthier. Then somewhere along the way we get caught up in following a technique and chasing an imaginary future goal. When I woke up to that it was a huge relief. Now I'm back where I started - practicing Yoga because I like it. 🙏