Today, February 20, 2017, marked 1 year clean and sober. It is both embarrassing and empowering to acknowledge the significance of this feat. For so long I believed, with great obstinacy, that I did not have a problem. Life was my problem. Drugs and alcohol were my solution. This thinking perpetuated a very deeply rooted malady; A languid anguish I've carried for decades but could not comprehend... much less shake. I had some very good times out there. I wouldn't change a thing. But the pain inevitably outweighed the pleasure and I knew, deep down, I needed to change. For many years, still, I tried in vain to "figure it out"... on my own. I could not. How truly humbling a revelation that has been. I'm no where near where I'd like to be, but I'm so much better than I was. Thank you to everyone who has carried me through. if you are going through it, you are not alone. If you'd like to know how I did it, please feel free to ask.