6/22/2018 (maybe too personal)
There’s a lot going on our world, and my first instinct is run from it all, and hide until it’s over. I should be stepping forward and making a contribution to our society. But instead, I walk the other way. I’m so selfish at times and I don’t even care.
When I sit back and look at who I am at 23 years old, I often don’t like what I see. I wanna remodel my mind when there’s no foundation to work off of. It’s like I’m in this alternate reality, my own world in a sense, that I can’t seem to come back from.
Each day is the same routine, but every hour I want change (for myself) and every minute I’m debating if I even want to live. My issues are irrelevant. I post these looks and pictures that mean NOTHING. There’s no courage or strength in writing a cool caption. Even realizing all of that, I still can’t grip reality. There is no reason to why I wanted to write this, maybe someone will relate or it’s the first step towards change. Sorry to any of my family/friends that think I ignore them, I’m just a little lost... all the time. lol PS. I’m aware that posting this picture is contradictory to my words. P/C: @samantha__mendoza