It's hard to show the world that you're open and vulnerable. It's even harder to portray that behind a bunch of pixels. I often drive myself crazy with my thoughts and that's from years of putting my brain into overdrive. But putting myself "out" there, on social media, has definitely made it worse... "What will they think of me? How many likes will my photo get? Will they unfollow me? Why do they unfollow me?!" The question I should really be asking myself after those thoughts is - "Does it really matter?" The answer is No. Deep down, I should know that. We should all know that.
But why is it so hard to think highly of ourselves when we are presented with pixels of others people's lives? Why are we so quick to judge? To compare?
Does it make us feel better? Or worse? Do we gain anything from it apart from feeling pretty crappy about ourselves?
Social media, you really are something! You have been and continue to be my weakness. You bring out more of my (many) insecurities, make me anxious and question my ability on plentiful occasions. But whilst you have done this, sharing my weaknesses and accepting are making me stronger. My skin is becoming thicker, my confidence is growing, I've met (and continue to meet) some incredible people, I've developed special friendships and built wonderful relationships. My dreams of building Mamazou have become and continue to be an ongoing reality. So whilst I sometimes ramble on with my thoughts on social media and the negative impact it can have, I really am eternally grateful for its existence.
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