All day long, no matter how many times I tried or prayed or cried hot tears, I felt like I was failing. So impatient, so exhausted, so focused on only God knows what... really, today was one of my hardest days as a mom. I stopped many (many) times and asked God to help me, but I still continued to flop around in my own impatience and filth. I'm not sure what's going on, I mean, I know there are things lingering in the near future that are absolutely YES LORD opportunities. So maybe it's a little bit of spiritual warfare? I need peace tonight. I am in need of a cleansed heart. God, take away this bitter impatience and give me more grace and a joyful heart.