We flew back to LA last night after spending 10 wonderful days with our family in NoVA. River did amazing and better than we expected. He’s such an awesome traveler now.
Dont let these photos fool you. The flight was a fuckin nightmare. My beautiful, happy boy was the nightmare. Yeah, I said it. It took almost 2 hours of whining and crying to get him to sleep. We had to endure glares and complaints from some passengers (understandably) and I was tempted to hand River to them and ask them if they could do better (probably could). When he finally passed out from sheer exhaustion, @ninedragons and I were feeling completely defeated, wrecked, and heartbroken that our son was so unhappy and uncomfortable.
This is motherhood. Honest motherhood. Real motherhood. My motherhood. I’m sharing this with you because what we usually post on social media is an idea of perfection. I have been guilty of this, as well. And I have been struggling with that guilt. It’s one of the many reasons I took a long break from social media this year. (Will share more with you later.)
Some days I feel like Super Mom with an I-can-do-anything-and-everything attitude. Most days I’m relieved that I managed to keep this little human alive another day. And when I have those really challenging, frustrating, manic days a good cry in the shower or on my husband’s shoulder seems to help (along with some wine. Ok, lots of wine).
My life - our life - is far from perfect. It can be chaotic and messy and very far from the ideal that many of us seem to feel the need to attain and achieve based on what others share publicly. #guilty
I NEVER want anybody to feel badly or question their path and choices because of some false sense of idyllic life I share with you. If you’re looking for inspiration on how to attain a perfect life, you’re on the wrong page. I’m a mess. BUT. If you’re looking for a friend and fellow mama who will be raw and honest, then let’s learn and grow together and support each other on this journey. Let’s raise good humans together.
From now on, I’m keeping it real.
It’s nice to be back. And I’ve missed you. ♥️ #keepinitreal #thestruggleisreal #wouldntchangeathing