My Infrared Sauna, my other love, the place where I can surrender to my needs for an hour. Sorry, Iv been distant on here, I'm so deep in motherhood atm, deeper than I ever felt actually. The kids need me all the time, its hard to even get a conversation in with others, eat a proper meal in one sitting, have a shower or go to the toilet alone. I'm constantly switched on and getting pulled in different directions by others who need me so that's why I need to switch off from insta at times, I'm so overloaded atm that it feels like a chore at times to post or share all the time or replying to the insane amount of messages or emails that I have, people will be disappointed but its near impossible for me to fulfill everyone's needs on a daily basis especially when I can't even fulfill my own needs because they come last on the list. I am such a giver, so its hard for me to ignore other peoples needs. I feel as though I have/had so many amazing opportunities that have come through social media and everything has come about since having children so I have never really been 100% focused on 'Loni Jane or Feel The Lean' in the last 4 years, I haven't been able to truly grasp the opportunities that come my way because I'm a full-time mum, I'm struggling to juggle it all! the endless emails, stories, research, requests, messages, comments, posts, website, blogs, ebooks, updates, photos, collaborations, the interviews, workshops, captions, customer service, employees, new projects, admin. Don't get me wrong I feel utterly blessed with this platform and how far I have come but I can't help but feel disappointed and guilt in myself for not being able to keep up with it. My desire is to be a fully focused mum but I also want to fulfill my career goals, the opportunities and my passion with the world at the same time? I'm really struggling to find a balance. I'm not sure what I need to learn to let go of a little bit, my business or my kids? My biggest fear is letting go of the kids too much and regretting it later in life when they have grown up, am I holding on too tight? I can't even think clearly right now. Any fulltime mum/entrepreneurs out there have any tips from me?