I am at this tipping point in my life where I have dozen options for my future. Yet, I cannot focus on which direction to go... I bought a beautiful home in ROC NY but I am restless and unhappy because I compromised. Now, I want to buy an RV and roadtrip for a few months to escape (although I have been to all 50 states, most multiple times and I have already lived on the road for three full years of my life)... I dream of volunteering at Animal Sanctuaries and I want to learn from the passionate people that run them, because my life only feels full when I am following my heart, which absolutely always leads me to animal rescue. Yet, being here in Seattle, reminds me that I also want to focus on my family (I have avoided them so very long that they barely feel like family). It also reminds me how isolated I am from the modeling/photography community. I miss modeling friends.... But if I move here, I have to rent/sell my house in NY and go back to renting (because the houses in Seattle are INSANELY expensive).... Gah. I sound like a brat. I have so many choices when so many people have none. But I struggled for years and I really want a solid positive change in my life.... but. . What do I do? Do I sell my house? Do I rent a house in Seattle? Do I take off in an RV with Stella? Should I buy land in Washington? Farm land is decently priced outside city limits.