“This is it. I’m actually dying.” That thought repeatedly ran through my head last Tuesday night as I was convinced I was having some type of brain attack (clearly I’m not a doctor with real medical terms) well I didn’t die but I still feel pretty crappy.
I haven’t had a medical issue this painful since my life-threatening experience in December 2015. You see, I have been getting Botox injections for my migraines for the last 4 years. I have suffered from migraines for almost a quarter of a century and these last 4 years have been game changers with these injections. I don’t enjoy them, but 200 units of Botox from your temple, through your head, neck and shoulders really makes your quality of life better waking up without a nagging pound in your head. 🧠
Well something went terribly wrong at my last appointment and for whatever reason, something didn’t take. I have had a headache from a nagging, full pain to an intense, full blown migraine since. That was 7 weeks ago. 🧠
Finally yesterday, I couldn’t do it anymore. My body said no more. 🧠
I found myself back at the Neurologist’s office and assumed they would do another nerve block like last week although it only lasted 24 hours. Um no. They not only did two blocks through my nose, I can’t even remember the number of injections deep into the back of my skull because I think I may have passed out for a few minutes. It was literally traumatizing - I couldn’t stop crying. 🧠
I promised myself I would always be transparent with my posts and show you how everything you see on social media isn’t what it really is. This picture was taken the night before that excruciating migraine. I still had a really bad headache, but had I posted this with another caption, you probably wouldn’t have known. 🧠
So for you out there thinking your life sucks, someone out there is struggling more than you - don’t be hard on yourself. The light will shine again. PS: everything they did yesterday is wearing off and I know I will feel crappy again at some point today. But, you won't find me at the Neurologist’s office. Heck no! #lifewithmamak