I’m finally posting :) So, I’m trying damn hard to get my Pro Card. Last year, I was too tiny and needed to grow. So, I’ve fucking WORKED to be worthy of that national stage. In April I started prepping for North Americans. I needed to do a regional show to qualify for NAs, hence this weekend. So, I went on stage, and never touched center. You guys.. it killed me. I had girls taking pics w/ me saying “I need this to know what to work towards”, saying “I heard you’re the one who does national shows”, so many knowing me by name without ever introducing myself.. but I placed 2nd in Open. Was it what I wanted? No.. lol. I feel stupid. And I say this from the bottom of my heart.. I’m the least cocky person I know. Truly. It just hurts and I know the work I put in. Got my feedback from 2 judges: 1 said I was perfect. Perfect symmetry, presentation, posing, presence, muscle, conditioning, everything. Ok.. Other said I was just too conditioned (aka too hard and they were judging softer). Said I was a “bag of chips” away from the overall. But that they gave me the 2nd b/c they looked at me and could tell I was a national-level competitor needing her qualification. Also said I’ll do great at NAs in a few weeks (fingers crossed lol). Although I’ve always prided myself that I’m a HARD working girl, and I was told by a judge that it SHOWS, I’m taking this as a wake up call that I need to kick myself in the ass if I deserve a top placing at NAs in 5.5 weeks. At the end of the day, I hope my physique shows that I pour my heart and soul into bodybuilding. I just LOVE it. It’s my everything. I got what I came for, my ticket to NAs, so I’m still in prep :) had the BEST FREE MEAL EVER & now I’m back at it. I’ll post more later with my family, but for now... thank you to everyone. Everyone. Anyone who has said one kind thing to me this whole prep.. I hope you know a little goes a long way.
Also, thank you to @herford_rise..... I know I didn’t come out a winner for you, my coach, but all I’ll say until I get a pic w/ you in 5.5 weeks is that you’re truly the, THE greatest coach and human I know. Regardless of today, you’ve taken me from nothing, to National Bodybuilder... thank you