I’ve been tagged numerous times to do 10-15 non fitness facts about myself, but I’ve already done that before. So I thought I’d switch it up and do something different and raw. So here are some things I haven’t even told most people about. This is just me being transparent which is pretty uncomfortable lol.
•I went to a private school up until high school. I almost switched schools numerous times bc there were only about 9 girls in my grade (including me) and they were all so damn mean to me. I came home crying to my mom countless times bc they always discluded me from everything.
•I always got teased for being fat when I was younger. Older girls would call me fat as I was riding my bike around my subdivision. I’d go home crying and my parents were livid.
•My private school had a fair every summer and everyone went. In 5th grade I tried making myself throw up a week before bc I wanted to look skinny for it. I couldn’t do it, but I kept trying to.
•When I went to Hawaii in 2015 I wanted to be as skinny as possible since I would be in a bikini every day. I would start to eat things, feel guilty, and then spit it out. Then I started chewing things and spitting them out just so I could get the taste of it without actually eating it.
•In high school and for a few years after I graduated, I drank a decent amount. On days that I knew I was going to be drinking, I’d eat as little as possible. That way I could get drunk quicker without drinking a lot of calories and looking super bloated from the drinks.
•When I first got into lifting all I wanted was to have a perfect set of abs. I have IBS so I deal with constant bloat. I would take laxatives the night before I knew I had a day off work/school, in hopes of losing weight from that.
••THESE ARE ALL THINGS I HAVE NEVER SHARED WITH ANYONE. Why am I sharing this for 30k+ people to read? Bc this shit is fucking real. People out there struggle with things like this daily. You’re not alone. You can get away from it. You can be healthy mentally and physically. I promise.
I’m healthy. I’m happy. I don’t let my past consume me. Here’s to #TransparentlyMovingForward 💙